One true best friend

I see you as number one in my heart
Put you first, always have from the start
But when I look at you I see that I’m nothing
If I was to be gone tomorrow, I’d at least know that you’re not gonna miss me.

You look at me, but you can’t really see what you put me through
And all this pain that washes over me is all because of you
I torture myself so that we can be friends
But how can we be when you had never even let me in?

You go to her while I come to you
Some one I don’t know that well means more to you then I do
We’ve been friends through thick and thin
But sometime I feel that I should give in.

So you’ve know her longer, that doesn’t mean you can’t come to me
Look into my eyes and really look, you’ll see
I can take your pain away just as good as she can
And I know that even if you don’t let me, I’m not any less of a friend.

But still it hurts, makes me think you don’t trust me
You tell me nothings wrong, while you tell her everything
I see you as my rock and you see her as yours
But can’t I be your rock too, it’s not impossible to have two.

But I’ll accept my nothingness, and embrace it like always
It’s what keeps me near you, because even though you don’t tell me everything
I need to be near you to know that I’m alive
Just so I know what it feels like to hurt inside.

So keep telling her how you feel and leave me in the dark
Go ahead and keep tearing up the thing I’ve never given anyone but you; my heart
I’ll still stay by you through the thick and thin
And maybe some day you’ll see me the way I see you
As your one true best friend.