Not right now Revised

Not right now


Breathe your life into that damn soulless doll
Mold her into your perfect little dream
Make her into what she needs to be
Yet if you ask me to help, I’ll just tell you not right now.

You didn’t help me all those years ago
You just watched me die, watched the life leave my eyes
Didn’t bring breath back to my once perfect life
So don’t ask me to help you
Cause I’ll say no and leave you here
I’ll let you be the one to die this time.

I can’t stay here anymore
Pack my things and leave this world
but I’ll stay just a little longer
This wintry dimension suits us more
At least when we see our breath I know we’re not dead, or at least not yet.

You didn’t help me all those years ago
You watched me die, watched the life leave my eyes
Didn’t bring breath back to my once perfect life
So don’t ask me to help you
Cause I’ll say no and leave you here
I’ll let you be the one to die this time.

Surrounded by the ethereal cold
Revolution of fears takes hold
Inside myself to live alone
I’ll come to you again one day
But right now I think I’ll kill you and your doll in a million different ways.

I can’t feel you inside me anymore
Then again, just the thought of that disgusts me.

You didn’t help me all those years ago
You watched me die, watched the life leave my eyes
Didn’t bring breath back to my once perfect life
Cause I’ll say no and leave you here
I’ll let you be the one to time this time dear.

I’ll never be who you want me to be
So go on and keep pretending.
Everything will be perfect with that fake little doll
But not right now, not ever in fact
So open your eyes, and finally decide to be real again.
You know, just like I did.

I didn’t die; in fact I’m still alive.
Just not in your world,
I wasn’t able to survive
And I’ll never be back
Not now, not ever.